I feel like I'm walking around in a cloud. I'm so out of sorts. I don't know what my problem is. I can't wake up today. I just want to dive under my covers and go back to sleep. I'm looking forward to 12:00 so I can go outside and try and snap out of it. No news as of 10:00 a.m. on the new job. I'm not going to call again until Monday.

We almost had a disaster of Biblical proportions last night. My lap top went dead. I did my limited tech routine of plugging and unplugging it in to different sockets -- Thank God I was home when this happened. Then I quietly left it to Purge while I contemplated suicide. None of my 2003 writing is backed up anywhere. The book isn't backed up or printed out. Luckily, Purge removed the battery and that seemed to work. I don't know why. All I know is the damn thing is about 6 years old. I got it used then and I abuse the stupid thing. I wouldn't have been surprised if the motherboard or the motherf*cker fried. All I knew was that if I lost everything, (including the huge grant I was working on) that it would be the final straw. The absolute end.

So instead of working on the grant that needed to get down, we backed up my files. So let that be a lesson to you all. Go now and back up all your important data. I'll wait.